Abortion.

Okay there is something that makes me pretty ticked. It's when girls are using abortion for B.C. I thought this way even before I had Avianna or even got pregnant. Girls are going out there, having unprotected sex, getting pregnant and going to PPH for an abortion. It's a human life. I deff. don't believe in that method of "Birth control" and I don't agree with abortion unless it's under a cercumstance .
1.You have been rapped.
2.You've been molested by a family member.
3.You are forced to have an abortion.
Yes ladies, you can be forced. I was taking this medicine for my acne called Acutane. It was a very powerful drug only perscribed by a Dr. and every month I had to take a blood test because YOU CANNOT GET PREGNANT ON THIS MEDICINE. It will damage your body and your kid WILL come out mentally ill. So I had to sign a waver form that if I had gotten pregnant, I had to have an abortion.

And as for girls ON birth control and getting pregnant and having abortions, why do you keep having sex if you see your BC isn't working for you?

Pregnancy & Avianna

So I was asked to write about being a teen mom and how the journey has been. As much as I HATE to air some of my dirty laundry, it's not glamorous so I'm going to say the truth. I refrain from using the word "hard" because being a "teen mom" isn't hard, it's just different.

When I got pregnant I WAS ON BIRTH CONTROL. I was on the pill but Planned Parent Hood gave me expired pills, so ladies check that expiration date if you don't want a baby! People ask me all the time "how did your mom react", honestly, she cried. It was hard for her but my sister got pregnant young too so it wasn't too bad. Before I got pregnant me and Jorge had talked and we both knew what the outcome would be if we had sex. When I told him I was excited, because there was no turning back . I DON'T BELIEVE IN ABORTION unless the person has been molested by a family member or rapped. So I took this pregnancy as something positive. I was still in high school, going to VHS and it was hard because I had morning sickness SO bad. It was all day every day till the end of my pregnancy - Literally. I ended up falling behind 5 credits b/c I had missed so much school thinking I had the flu. I transferred to Country High and went on ISP trough them. I ended up graduating early in March with a 4.0 and walking in June. Welll, that's what everyone pretty much knows, now for the not so easy stuff.

the pregnancy took a toll on mine & Jorges relationship. He stopped being around, started hanging out with his friends more and I was alone. I hated it, I thought it was going to be like this forever. All I wanted was my baby's father at night to cuddle with since my hormones were going crazy. We fought a lot and we were just going through a really hard time. The relationship within it self was hard. We broke up cause I hate thinking "I'll get help tonight" or "He'll be home tonight" and be disappointed . We got back together AFTER Avianna was born. While I was in labor we were not together. It really sucked. He is a wonderful father to Avianna, but things are still hard. I'm a very clean person and he never cleans his mess. I do everything in the house (our laundry, clean our room, organize, do everything for Avianna as well.) and all I ask is him to do his dishes, and clean up his mess. I bet if I walk over to his side of the bed right now his mess that I asked him to clean up 10x will still be there.....hold on let me check.......oh yes it is! 3 pairs of shoes, like common dude how hard is it to take them off and set them in the closet!, a pair of pants a shirt and a jacket -___- Also he NEVER picks up his dirty clothes out of the bathroom. The kid has made my bed mabie 4 times . Also, he just started changing avianna's clothes. He thought he was going to brake her or something? It used to make me so mad. He changed diapers for awhile, the first month or so I didn't have to change one. the baths, the clothes, putting her to sleep is all on me now. I'm trying to get him to help more but he's mentally 5 in this situation so it's hard.

With Avianna, she's such a good baby. I hardly ever had to wake up every two hours to feed her. only a few times. She only cries if she's hungry or needs a diaper change or if she just wants her momma. It's different because going to the store I used to be able to run in run out, now it takes a half an hour and the shortest amt of time, and if i have to go shopping shoppin that can take up to a whole day with her. She keeps amazing me every day with the new things she does .

Through it all, I wouldn't change anything . I love my daughter so much as well as her dad. I know i said all bad stuff about Jorge, but he's amazing. He's such a great father and he treats me really well. He spoils me when he can and our relationship just keeps getting better.

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Something that really bothers me: When people try to tell me what's wrong and right because they know "what's best for me". I have my head on straight and I know wrong from right, i'm 18-Legally an adult. How could you dare tell me something is a sin so I can't do it, how dare you say i'm Unchristian because i'm not doing exactly what you want me to do? So what if I want another kid out of wed lock, I do want to be married just not right now. So what if I don't feel comfortable around your house so I won't come over.

You know what's a sin? Saying your HAPPY because someone had a misscarrage . How dare you say i'm unchristian cause of my wants and needs.
Also someone in the same family told an 17 year old, 7 months pregnant, "Your going to be alone for the rest of your life no one wants you" NEWS FLASH HOME GIRL: You have two kids, by two DIFFERENT baby daddies. You are with no one and you're 30 years old, who's going to be alone?

Also, more about the more kids out of wed lock thing: Yeah that's what I want. I don't want to be married until i'm out of College and have a career but I want more kids before then. Wouldn't mind a ring on my finger though.

Don't tell me i'm wrong, keep your opinions to yourself . I'm grown, I don't need you to lead the way for me. My mom can do that. Also I may be 18, but i am grown because i'm mentally a lot older. You would know that if you took the time to get to know me.

Get your kind under control!

Okay so this came to me today when Avianna had just gotten put down to sleep and was woken up by some kids. We have thin walls, not the kids' falt. The problem was is these kids live at least 5 houses away from me, yet they are coming so close to my house they mind as well be in my moms front garden. When they get close they like have a spo t RIGHT IN FRONT OF AVIANNAS ROOM where is their "base" for tag. I don't have the balls to go and say "excuse me but can you stop playing in front of my house, my kids asleep." This deff. isn't the first time they have done this either! The mom is outside laughing at the kids, i'm like wth? Also as I've mentioned in a previous post we have four parking spots in front of my house. Well, I have my car parked there FINALLY. Those same kids' parents were cutting down a tree and so they had a ton of sticks. These kids were running in and out of the cars with the sticks hitting each other. I was watching them to make sure no one was hitting the cars, they came pretty close, and the mom is once again sitting there laughing. -___-

Another situation occured at Ross. I was in line to exchange something and some woman had a, I want to say, 3 year old and a 5 month old. At the time Avianna was almost 4 months. Her little girl came up to the stroller and touched Aviannas face almost slapping it! The mom just sat there. And i'm not a mean person so I don't know where the line is crossed when telling SOMEONE ELSES kid to back off.

Now this one doesn't have to do with kids, well actually it does because of lack of maturity and respect towards others: WHY DO YOU FEEL THE NEED TO COME INTO A TRAILOR PARK SLAPPIN'. Note: you're not bad ass. And It makes me so mad because this wanna be gang banger drives by 9, 10, 11 sometimes 1 in the morning slappin' his POS music and you can't hear it and the base sounds like ass. Like no respect bro or what? there have been so many times where I want to go outside and sit there till he comes so I can throw a red colored egg at him (Since you can clearly tell he's a "Northerner") and scream F U HAVE SOME RESPECT! Every time he comes in here slappin' he wakes up Avianna, and if not that he wakes me and Jorge up too!

Okay last one: In my park you're not allowed to have any "large" sized dogs, Pitts, rottweilers*, great danes, ect. Cause they can jump over the fences here. Well the same people who have the kids I was talking about have a rottweiler*. That dog barks day in and day out waking Avianna up if their kids don't get to her first. I wake up hearing the dog even if the T.v. or fan is on . Now dude, get control of your kid and damn dog!


So in close tonight not only do I say get your kids in line and also have some respect, but I'de like to ask for prayers for my friend Brittany and her boyfriend Brett. Baby Emoree (their baby) was born November 23rd. Brittany's due date was in December but due to a leak in her water she had to be enduced. On top of spending Thanksgiving in the hospital, the day Brittany was supposed to be realeased they got news that baby Emoree would not be comming home with them. Baby Emoree still isn't home and they want her home (who wouldn't want their baby home with them) So I ask you to pray for them. If you don't pray please wish or hope or whatever you may do to get baby Emoree healthy enough to come home. Thank you!

Vacaville, CA.

So someone asked me to write about stuck up girls in Vacaville, but i'm going to write about something else too.

1.STUCK UP GIRLS: Like common' it's just Vacaville, not NYC. No need to be a Biotch. We're in a little town, you're not going to get anywhere in life being stuck up. Be classy. I read a status on Angelas Facebook yesterday and she said  "Maybe you should eat makeup so you can try and to be pretty on the inside" So true! I saw a girl in the mall the other day, she was deff. a MILF. Buttttt then she gave me the rudest look and when I was walking she hit me in the back with her stroller. I have NO idea who this chick is but it made her ugly. She was no longer a MILF because her attitude made her ugly. I know a lot of girls in Vacaville think you're better than everyone else, but you're not. There are tons of different people in Vacaville : Poor, wealthy, rich, tweaks, alcoholics, teenage moms, older moms, JC grads, UC grads but no matter what color or how much money you have YOU ARE NOT BETTER THAN OTHERS. I may not have a lot of money but I have a big heart, that doesn't meant I'm better than the next. 


2.GANG BANGERS: IT'S VACAVILLE. Where the heck are you going to go in vacaville with that kind of lifestyle?! I just don't get people. They'd rather kill for someone they haven't known but a year or whatever then to have their freedom, like really guys?! "Let's go bang on someone cause they have blue/red converse on." I just don't get why you would risk your life hurting others....

"Oh yeah let's hit girls."

Okay, so by request by an anonymous reader i'm going to write about men hitting women . Or guys hitting girls. People always say it's not always the guys which is true but common' get real. When men/boys hit females they hurt them. But when a girl hits a guy, unless she's a big girl, it probably doesn't hurts. (Well, I think it wouldn't.) It's defiantly over all the most unacceptable for a dude to hit a female when a baby is present. What influences men to hit females? If you think about it, females are defiantly stronger than dudes mentally. Females can take emotional hits (Don't get me wrong, it hurts and some people i'm sure tend to explode) But when boys/men who have been brought up to hit females get an "Emotional hit" they get violent. & It is really how they were brought up. If anyone fights it's because either they saw it when they were a kid, or they were brought up to think it's okay. And I don't understand how someone can raise their kid like that. Does no one think about how the other person may feel when you're smashing their face in ? I've been there , getting hit not the hitter, and it's not too nice. I'm not saying i've been hit by a man/boy but i've taken some hits from girls.

So anyways, the point is HIT A FEMALE GO TO JAIL. I hope no female has to go through this, and if they do I hope they have the power to look towards god or whatever you believe and get out of that relationship. it may be hard but once a hitter always a hitter unless god changes them.

I'm sorry.

The title of this is "I'm sorry" because I feel sorry for what i'm about to write about.

I recently saw a girl I knew in a music video, making herself look "sexy". I feel bad for the ladies who think they have to lower themselves for a man to like them, or to get attention. There is also a classy way to look "sexy" and a trashy way. I can only hope that the ladies in music videos can find a way out of that life style. I'm not saying that girls being in music videos is trashy, it's the way you present yourself in that video.

Seriously?

Okay so something that really gets under my skin is when unfit moms give advice to other moms.
Number 1.If you drink while pregnant, you're an unfit mother (No i'm not talking a beer or wine every once in awhile, because they are now showing that is perfectly fine. I'm talking drinking 1 beer + A DAY!) 2.If you sell/do or let your child around someone who sells/does Coke, Crystal, and other bad drugs, you're an unfit mother. 3.IF YOU DO DRUGS WHILE YOU'RE PREGNANT YOU'RE AN UNFIT MOTHER! 4. If you contradict yourself.....well you're not an unfit mother. But you may be a bitch. hahaha. 5. If you have had your child taken away from you, you're an unfit mother! Anyways, I am in this "Moms group" on FB. Whenever I, or someone else has a concern or wants to know something that has to do with them or their child they post things questions on FB. some are mothers I know, but most of them I don't. I sure do find it funny when I see someone I know who is an "unfit" mother giving advice. Especially one person inpeticular who no longer has one of her children living with her, and another who Drinks all the time while pregnant.

Well that's my take on it. Remeber, you don't have to agree with me. This is the way I see things, if you feel differently feel free to speak your mind. But please, do it with respect.

Baby fat and other things.

So people have been asking me how I lost my "baby fat", well I never really got big to begin with. But Here is what I do do. I just got the Wii just dance 3, and I'v been losing weight that way. Also I park pretty far in the parking lot so I walk. I get out a lot more too now, doctors appointments and taking Avianna to do things. I TRY and eat good, don't get me wrong I can tear up some double chocolate brownies hahaha. But I eat salads with DRY tuna aka NO MAYO, and try to watch my portions.

So onto the next thing. It makes me soo mad when moms act like it's sooo hard raising a kid. It's really not, you just have to do EVERYTHING differently. It takes 3x as long to go into a store, yes, but it's not HARD. When they get older you can't just turn on the T.V. to entertain them, go out to the park and play some soccer. A person that I know used to complain about her weight and she has a kid, but she just stuck her kid infront of the T.V. then would complain when she couldn't get a babysitter so she could work out. Like HELLO! Go to the park with your child and play with them, not just sit there.

It also ticks me off when women don't stay with their, for lack of a better word, "baby daddy" and put other men before there child. They would rather get a sitter so they can go out with there new guy and his friends then have a night in watching movies with their kid. Or include your kid in things with your "new man". I mean you don't have to say "This is my new boyfriend ____" You can act like it's your friend for the sake of not neglecting your child.

When you're a young mom/DAD you don't need to be another statistic. Don't treat your child like your friend! That's when they grow up to be thugs, gang bangers, pimps, drug addicts ect.

DADS:I can't say this enough DON'T BE A DEAD BEAT! First off if your baby momma is smart, she'll come after your butt for child support. Second, think of how your kid will grow up with out you. If you have a girl, she may sleep around or become a stripper. With a boy he might get a girl pregnant at a young age, or go looking for that attention in a gang.

Well that's all for tonight (: Thank you to everyone who has been reading. If there is something you would like me to write about, let me know!

Facebook.

Okay, so I didn't really know what to write about. Everything is going good for me, except the damn parking situation where I live. But other than that everything is going good, my daughter is AMAZING and i couldn't ask for more. My relationship=GREAT, hasn't been this good in a long time, and as for my family they're equally as amazing as my daughter.

So I was thinking about what to write about, and a new friend request goes onto my facebook. Someone who I don't really know, and i'v deleted in the past. Why add me if i'v deleted you? I don't just delete people cause they "aren't cool enough". I delete them because I don't talk to them. To me Facebook is a place to connect with friends and family, not somewhere where you add whoever whenever. So whether you're someone I don't know, or someone who just STALKS my FB I won't add you. People are nosy, I can admit i'm nosy myself. But I don't make it visible (until now) <---lol. I don't add someone just to read how there relation ship is, or how there baby is. If you're going to do that, ADD THEM AND TALK TO THEM. That goes for outside of FB as well. i'm pretty sure this was a dumb post but It really irritates me when people I delete add me again, I add them back, then they don't talk to me so I delete them again ect.

next post will be coming soon i'm sure, I already know what to write about.
-Contradicting other people. Check yourself before you wreck yourself.

Girls become lovers, who turn into mothers.

Theres a Song John Mayer wrote called "Daughters", I think if you're a parent you should listen to it. The lyrics are raw and so true. When you're a parent you need to give your child stability, and be a "fit" parent. Giving your child instability, for example, telling your kid "This is daddy" and then going and telling him/her "This is your daddy too" is wrong. You effect your kid NOW. Doing this like yelling and cursing infront of your child while they are young can still effect them. I'm young but I took enough classes on the human brain and child development to back myself up. Also what I believe is wrong is taking your child away from the only father they know just because you're selfish. Once you have a baby it's not all about you, it's about YOUR CHILD. You are your childs role model, so act like an adult. You made an adult decision to keep a baby, create a baby, adopt a baby, get a sperm donor ect. Not only are you screwing up your childs life, but it could be inpacting someone elses life as well.

"I'm starting with the man in the mirror, i'm asking him to change his ways. And no message would have been any clearer, if you wana make the world a better place."

BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD. Start with you & the next generation first.

Girls.

So I went to the movies the other night to see Twilight, while I was walking back to the theater from getting popcorn I walk past a long line for the girls bathroom. As I was walking a girl yelled out "whore". I didn't process until I had gotten back to the theater. Was this directed at me? Wether or not it was directed at me it really bothered me. It bothered me because 1. (If It was directed at me) I am a mother, I have done everything I can to protect my image as a mother. Not dressing like a "whore", not dressing to provacitive, being classy and watching how I hold myself. And I am a totally different person today that I was before I got pregnant. 2. Why would you put someone down like that? Are you a "whore" and have a guilty conscience? Or are you just jelous because you're man would rather have her than you?

Regardless, no one should talk like that to a female, wether they're bad news or not. I must say i'm not 100% perfect, I have done my fair share as well. But as I matured, I realize "is this the life you want? To talk about other people?"

And FYI: If someone is a mom, respect that. Just because they're young doesn't mean they don't deserve the same respect as a mother in their 30's .

First post(:

This is my first blog, never even really read a blog but i'm hoping I can let out some steam on this as well as see what other viewers feel on situations. Make sure you look for polls at the top of my page and please "vote" on them! They help me to see how YOU feel about things that i'm looking to write about.

**For some reason the question to today's poll isn't showing up. The question is DO YOU CATCH YOURSELF STEREOTYPING PEOPLE?**

Time to vent: So I live in a mobile home park and our parking in very limited. We have three cars that are used daily, mine, my moms and my step dads. Our carport can only have two cars parked under it and it's my mom and step-dads. Across from our mobile home are four spots and they're supposed to be used for visitors and residents. We didn't have a problem parking there until almost a year ago. Now residents are storing there cars there. One guy impiticular, Ben, has 5 cars. Why a man has five cars when it's only him and his daughter living at the house blows my mind. Ben stores as many cars as possible in those spots. I forgot to mention, if you can't park there the closest parking is either down the street outside the park or down at the very end of the trailer park. Very hard to carry a baby in a car seat far away from my house. Lately it hasn't been just him though, it started with him then others have  started rebelling. A Hispanic family three houses down from mine bought another truck (they already have an expedition and truck) and park it in one of those four spots . The people two houses down from them store their expedition, Ben has a car there and then this red truck (whom we have NO clue who's it is.) So there are all four spots taken. I've wanted to say something when I see them switch cars from one that's in their carport to the one that's in the spot. 

How would you handle this situation?

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